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They don't blame me. They really don't. And Meg says she won't leave me alone until I try to be happier.

Meg. She's so pretty. And everybody likes her. And she seems to like everybody. Even me.

She wouldn't like me if she knew. I mean, sure, she says everybody's done something stupid they want to make up for, but ... not this kind of something.

I don't have to tell her, do I? I've changed. I've recanted, like I told Grima. I'm not the person I was when I killed Jonath did that. And she said you can't turn your whole life into penance, right?


She doesn't have to know.